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my Jesus
to prove Jesus through our intellect
to show that He met up to our standards
of historical science
we tried to have God on our own terms
then we realized that history is not a science
and neither is science
because we are not scientific
and neither is God
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we already had the Jesus seminar
and the historical Jesus movement
which were essentially glorified predecesors
to the Da Vinci Code
historical fictions
without the history
as if such a history would satisfy our souls
were it even possible
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we wanted a personal Jesus
no, I wanted a personal Jesus
not you, not we, because there is no 'we'
we, i mean i, cannot prove a 'we'
and yet i write to you who isn't
because i don't know you
scientifically, that is
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and so i want a personal relationship
with Christ
my Jesus, my way
my documents, my pictures,
my videos
or at mcdonalds
my fries, my drink, my shake
my forbidden fruit
my Jesus, my homeboy
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maybe if He's really mine
maybe if he's really mine
i don't need him to be Other
after all, i can't prove the Other
scientifically
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so he is a god, is he?
but he's my god
because i have a personal relationship with him
just me
and i can prove him scientifically
i mean historically
it doesn't really matter
my intellect, my way
he was a man like me
i showed you that
or at least i showed me that
historically
scientifically
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our stars, our gods
they're not so shiny
they're not so holy
they fall, like you and me
they die, like you and me
he died, like you and me
he fell, like you and me
or like me
i think
because i don't know you
or he
just me
scientifically, that is
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we're really all the same
if there were a we
because all of you
all of he
is really me
we all fall
i fell
--------------------maybe i'm a god, i mean
maybe i'm the God
50 cent is my god
because he makes me feel like God
at least he admits he's fallen
the rest i have to drag down
oh, they'll fall eventually, obviously
they'll die
but not fast enough for me
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the deader they are,
the more alive i feel
the faster they fall,
the more god-like i feel
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i am what i am
sounds familiar
isn't that from the bible somewhere?
it must've been talking about me
after all, it's only a book
i could write a book
i practically wrote it myself
that's what my history says
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so i can't get away from you
whoever you is
my fear is that you are
an indication of a He
but maybe if i pretend that
you are not an indication
but He, but he
then i can pretend that i, too
am He, am he
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then we can rejoice in our humanity
and sing hosannas to ourselves
until we fall, until we die
until i fall, until i die
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my reoccuring nightmare, though
my only dream
is that when i fall, when i die,
there will be a He
a He that died for my fall
but a He that rose again
historically
scientifically
for me
but...







